something about nothing.

Hello, you lovely people you, it's been awhile. My heart is pumping, and I am breathing the same as always, but my head is clouded over, like the first signs of a storm on a clear day. These days, I drink turmeric tea, eat foods from the Earth, and make my head dizzy by counting all of the places I want to go. Sometimes, I like to look through my passport as if it's a scrapbook. I want to fill it up with more stories soon, I know I will someday! I know it can't happen right now, I'm still working hard and don't have a lot of time for photos, I apologize. I haven't been able to really sit down and take pictures just to take them, and write words, just for the sake of writing. I've missed it, I've missed every pen stroke, every pixel in a picture. I finally have a day off, so it's been a day of inspiration. 

Lately, I feel like my mind is starting to collapse into itself. I go to sleep with heavy eyes, I wake up with heavy eyes. I have wanderlust inscribed into my skin, but I can't leave Sac anytime soon, so, it's been showing up in my dreams. I've dreamed about Hong Kong everyday this week. It's a little frustrating, but, at least I know I can come home in my subconscious. Instead, I'm trying the best I can to always stay positive and optimistic. There is a reason for me being here, and I will enjoy every sun ray that falls on my skin, every smile from a stranger as we pass each other by, like orbiting planets.

Been planning new photo shoots and reading words of wisdom all day.

My mind's been spinning like a record on a turntable all day.

I don't get to see mama much, because we're both working a lot. I like how our voices fill the air over coffee.

I always seem to receive wonderful little reminders in life when I need them ♡

Before leaving the coffee shop, I smile at my mother, because she's starting to understand her wild child's mind.

I fully believe that words can evoke emotion and bring a fire into our hearts, mind, and veins. They can change the world, including my own. That's why, mostly, I use this space as my own personal pick-me-up. Years ago, I was too shy to even write down my thoughts to anyone, and now, it starts with https. Let's keep growing and changing together. Have great days everyone, and for every breath that fills your lungs, smile because you're alive. we're both alive! 

Nihonmachi: 日本町

My friends and I had the opportunity of travelling to Japantown in San Francisco in late April. It was only a day, but I wish I could have stayed longer, gone to more places. On the car ride to San Francisco, my heart was peaceful, my pulse was steady, watching the people I don't get to see enough of. There were so many unique items being sold, my friends wanted me to buy gifts for myself, but talking to the people in the stores was better than any gift. They gave me advice, wished me well on my own journey to Japan in a year, and complimented me on my Japanese. I treasure these moments, they give me fuel for the motivation I had almost forgotten. It really was a lovely day! ♡

mountain song

Growth. This word has been in my head for days now, slumbering. This word, like wildfire spreads over my skin. Life is all about growth. Humans are constantly growing and changing. As of now, I'm in a constant period of growth, in my own life, as well as my art. I've gotten into an obsessive habit, where I check inspiring artists' work several times a day, and I'm so grateful to you all. You are all so amazing, you inspire me everyday, make me want to grow and better myself. Thank you.

There are big changes coming in the future, and it's a little bit difficult choosing which path I'll take. I've had a song line stuck in my head, "You could be doin' anything you dream of..." and I fully believe this. We have so much more power than we think we do. We have limitless amounts of motivation trapped in our veins, I'm slowly trying to unleash more of mine. I'm trying to prepare for that time, as well as juggling the ideas and words inside of my head. I wish I could tell you all about the thoughts that dance through my mind, the words that make me stop what I'm doing (even at work) and run for a pen and paper. But, to be honest, I'm not at that level of comfort yet.

Home-made berry cobbler.

Stories and memories by the fire.

These photos are from my mini vacation in the mountains several days ago. Even though it was only about 30 hours, it slowed the beating of my heart, and calmed my hurried head. I wish I could come up here more often, I need more of this peace, this cold to wind me down, because these days I've wound myself up from all the stress. This might be the last time I visit this place for a long time, so I tried to open up my heart, and soak everything in as much as I could. The day before Easter, I spent about five hours shooting by myself. Dancing around the trees, and in front of my camera. Wandering around, not noticing when branches cut my skin. It was worth it, I need more days like this.

Just trying new things.

Don't know what persuaded me to add the bow...

A friend recently said that even if you make mistakes, you should share them anyways, that's what I'm doing now. There's so much to learn! I'm still on the path, just not there yet, and I don't think there's an end. Let's keep walking together ♡

therapy

Holding a camera in my hand is therapeutic. This morning, I woke up and my body seemed confined to my bed. I laid there for hours with sleepy eyes and a heavy mind. Little thoughts, like fleeting thunder, passed through my head. I want to return to the times where I used to carry my camera around with me everywhere. Being able to see something I want to capture, and not having my camera with me is one of the worst feelings in the world for me. These days, I've been working working working, and on my off days, I haven't been shooting at all, no new models, no anything. I need to change all of that. Today, I took photos of simple things, and, even if they were simple spur-of-the-moment photos, my soul felt a little lighter taking them <33

Where I live, it's windy and grey, so stay warm today everyone! <333